i keep wanting to play morrowind. maybe when i have an extra 10 hours one day i will.

hey i know its been sometime since my last post. just wanted to let everyone know im still alive. a lot has happened to me lately. first im sure some of you remember the story of my grand-dad falling and hurting him self really bad. well he passed away last week and the whole thing was really hard on me. i couldn't even go up to the casket and see him. it was hard enough on me seeing him from where i was sitting. i wish he would have never taken that walk to the plumbers that day.
secondly staccie is now taking me to court and she wants my visitation with madalynn to be changed to every other weekend because she feels rushed. i dont know what that's all about because she doesn't work at all she doesn't have to rush. basically she found out that if we split the time almost in half she will get less child support.
now for better news. i have a new girlfriend. evvie matthews. she rocks. we get along great. we have been dating for about 3 months but have actually been "going out" for 2 (as of today). i am madly in love with her. i think im gonna get her to move in with me in Jan. ive been thinking about it a lot lately. if she does move in im gonna want it to be just me and her, more family oriented or whatever you want to call it. the down side is im gonna come off as an asshole to a couple people because of it and that is what im afraid of. well im off to bed now. -later

i recently got to play halo with 7 people. it was all out chaos. i loved it, i couldnt belive how much fun it was. we had 4 people on my xbox in the living room and 3 people on another xbox in my bedroom. hopefully next time we do this we will have another xbox and atleast 10 people. and next time i want to be onthe the same screen as the guy know as "yourself" he was really good and i want to be able to watch his screen.

Dover - Man's best friend made the ultimate sacrifice for Larry and Jen Randal yesterday, as the couple's cherished Retriever, Mrs. Cookie, leaped into a flaming building to ensure the demise of their obnoxious son. Four-year-old Billy Randal seemed about to escape a late-night blaze at the couple's suburban residence when the pet subdued the child and dragged him back to his death as the neighbors and parents he had tormented watched gratefully.
Mr. Randal said that the fire began accidentally when the vat of oily rags he stored in Billy's closet was ignited by one of the candles the family used for light. At the first sign of smoke, Mr. Randal quickly ushered his wife and Mrs. Cookie to safety, where they agreed that "maybe it was a good time to let the little guy catch up on his sleep."
The annoying toddler on the verge of life.

A tense silence fell on the gathering crowd when crashing debris woke Billy, and the child stumbled toward the door. As the family watched helplessly from the sidewalk, the boy struggled free of the burning debris, his tiny body silhouetted against blaze.
Tragedy was avoided only when Mrs. Cookie sprung from Larry Randal's arms to pull the staggering, annoying four-year-old back into the fire. According to firefighters' reports, the dog, "like some kind of Darth Lassie," was gnawing on Billy's charred flesh even as it was itself overcome by flames.
Witnesses described the boy's screams as typically obnoxious. "But actual death shut Billy's mouth like no beating ever could," his thankful mother said.
She continued, "Billy changed the life of everyone who knew him. I'll never forget it when he pulled my hair and called me a lesbian." Mr. Randal added, "He would call me that, too." Billy was especially close to Mrs. Cookie, said his parents, "He would grip her ears and try to ride Cookie down the stairs or sometimes trick her into licking the stove. It's that kind of thing that inspired her to do what she did."
Shortly after the fire was extinguished, the family gathered with relatives and a few close friends at a nearby nightclub to come to terms with Billy's death.

i had some friends over tonight and i dont think they had much fun. mainly because they just got to watch us play halo. also i wasn't much fun because i found out that my granddad isnt doing well. for those that dont know a few months ago he was trying to walk to the plumbers (on a Sunday, go figure) and he tripped and fell and hit his face on the curb and cracked his skull, also hurting his wrist. it messed him up pretty bad. he is in a home now and at first he couldn't remember most people, but he got better and could recognize people and kept telling my dad that he wanted them to get him out of the home. well, now my dad thinks he just gave up when he realized where he was and that he couldn't leave, so now he wont eat and they said you can hardly tell who he is because he has lost so much weight and is so sick looking. i havent been to see him since he got hurt. i dont think i could handle seeing him like that.
anyway i had some stuff on my mind tonight. sorry

W A R N I N G !!!!!!!!!!!!

do not go see Signs, i was one of the most awful movies ive seen in some time.i actually thought it looked good from the previews (even though it was from the same butt munch that did the sixth shit). but it was warm dog piss covering 5 year old rotten poop.

i got my hair cut real short last night and i shaved off the old goat. so what im trying to say is i look pretty stupid.

matts cousin is coming into town this week. i cant wait to see her, we use to be good friends but i havent talked to her in like 5 years or more. plus i have always had a big crush on her and im sure shes knows that so it wont be big news when i tell her. im just glad ill get to hang out with her some, and she will get to meet madalynn this weekend.

well staccie is taking me to court now for child support. i refuse to give her money because i know she will blow it on herself and lend it out to her family. that's what she did with her child support money that she got for hailee while we were together. PLUS, she only has madalynn like 12 hours more than me. so why should i pay anything its almost split down the middle. i take care of her here and staccie should take care of her when shes with her. if she needs money she should get a job instead of seeing how many kids she can have before shes 25.
i will buy diapers, food, juice or whatever madalynn needs and give it to staccie but i dont want to give her cash.

i hate that slut

i asked staccie how far along she was today and she just said its not yours. she refuses to tell me how far she is. i think shes afraid it could be mine. i can tell she is several months along and we had sex in february and in march. i think shes afraid to let neil know what kind of girl she really is but if he is the father than he should know already. i mean 3 kids 3 different dads. SLUT!

beef hearts taste goooood!!!!!

im talking about my life. i cant seem to get that through to you. im not just talking about one person im talking about everybody. im talking about form. im talking about content. im talking about interrelationships. IM TALKING GOD, THE DEVIL, HELL, HEAVEN! DO YOU UNDERSTAND? FINALLY?

i think i should post a few things about me that everyone should know.

my favorite juice is apple juice (sometimes orange)

my favorite sandwich is tuna fish and pickles on toast

my all time favorite band is hum (for many many years now, even back in the day when james would say things like "they use that riff a lot" like they werent that good
ppbbbtttttt!!!!!!

favorite movies in no certain order: beastmaster, the last starfighter and the never ending story (part 1! the others never existed in my mind)

im single :( (ill probably stay that way because in too chicken to say anything to girls i like)

my favorite books and stories : and occurrence on owl creek bridge, red badge of courage, *to build a fire* (i forgot that one the first time around), the prisoner of azkaban, the goblet of fire

i spend most of my time playing video games, im currently playing elder scrolls 3: morrowind (amazing HUGE game if you like any rpgs i highly recommend it), and sometimes i just have to have a halo fix. my favorite ever is pac-man

my favorite hamburger joint is hardees (mmmmmm......monsterburger) oh yeah i was a vegetarian for 3 or so years

and finally my favorite of all my favorites is my 19 month old daughter madalynn zoe. by the way matt asked when her birthday was and i said it was a day that will live in infamy. he didnt get it.

anything else you want to know youll have to ask me and well talk about it over dinner ;)

we went to chuck e cheeses today. it was cool, i love it there. i didn't get to play any games and madalynn is to small for most everything there anyway. everyone else did and they all seemed like they were having fun, and they all gave madalynn their tickets so she could get some toys. that seemed to make her happy and that's all that really matters. ill try to get her picture in that little red car next time.

i just heard the GREATEST sample to ever be used in a song. imagine the following in a redneckish voice.

"i took the butcher knife and put it up to her neck. i said if you want to live to see tomorrow you better start frying them eggs a little bit better than what your frying. i tired of eating sloppy slimy eggs"

how much big booty does that kick

I AM THE MAN WHO WOULD FIGHT FOR YOU HONOR
ILL BE THE HERO THAT YOUR DREAMING OF
GONNA LIVE FOREVER
KNOWING TOGETHER
THAT WE DID IT ALL FOR THE GLORY OF LOVE

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WHY WHY WHY.... why was my sword of white woe stolen. its not fair. i was rocking ass with that sword.

the strangest thing just happened to me. i come home from work and i sit down at the computer for a bit, then i hear a knock at my door. i go answer it and i cant believe who i see. its staccies brothers wife, well they are separated but havent got a divorce yet because he is to stupid to remember to sign the papers. anyway the weird part is that she use to talk to me online towards the end of last year. then she started saying i was hot and whatnot (yeah i didn't understand it either but oh well) anyway she was telling me about wanting me in many ways. i thought it was cool, it makes you feel good about yourself when people tell you that they think your hot and sexy. she even sent me some fully nude pictures of herself, some with some touching in them. nothing ever happened and we hadnt even talked for many months, not since the beginning of the year. its just crazy that she stopped by. she said she had a 2 hour break before her next class and thought she would stop by.
she wasn't very big when i was talking to her online but she was, i guess, slightly chubby she was like a stick. it took me a second to realize who it was.
ok i just thought i would share that with everyone. and no nothing happened! and nothing ever will. we just talked about what we had been up to and how screwed up staccie and tommys (staccies brother) family is.

it was weird.

matt played morrowind for the first time last night. i think he thought it was cool. but it took him forever to pick his person. like what race he wanted, which attributes were his favorite and also his major and minor skills. I think it was the second time he started a game he actually spent an hour trying to decide. a few times when he was almost done and the guy would ask if he was sure or if anything needed to be change, matt would go "no wait!" and he would go back and start the thing all over. i actually could feel my brain going numb.
morrowind is the poo!

whitney was wearing a sweet spider-man ringer tonight. she said she got it in the boys section at walmart. i want one but my fat ass is out of luck.